A month of changes

I can't believe that my little girl is already a month old, it went by so fast! So how has the last month been you might ask? It has been the hardest most tiring time of my life, but also the happiest. The first few weeks were the hardest. My emotions/tear ducts were out of control (didn't help that I was extremely tired) and I was having anxiety dealing with all the changes. Now not to say that I am perfectly fine now, but I'm doing a lot better. Correction, WE are doing a lot better.

Leili is growing like a champ! It's so cute because she is getting chunkier every day it seems. I swear every morning when I am changing her out of her pjs and into clothes she has developed a new roll of fat on her thighs. She, like all newborns, still sleeps a ton. I constantly wonder if she sleeps too much and that is when my mom reminds me that babies sleep a ton. (And she is so good at it!)

Passed out after a bath.

Fell asleep sitting on my lap resting on the boppy.

She looks so tiny here.

We are still working on getting her to switch her nights and days. She is however the cutest little night owl/day sleeper ever! During the time that she is awake she enjoys being held and talked to. She enjoys her bouncer and swing. She loves her binkie. She also smiles a lot when she is half sleeping half awake. We try to give her a lot of tummy time, but she doesn't enjoy that as much.

Sleeping wise, right now she gets a bath at 9:30 (doctors suggestion to help her realize there is 24 hrs in the day) and then eats and then is rocked to sleep. She sleeps from 10:15ish to about one or two in the morning. For the most part she will wake up and be up for about two hours at a time at night (this is what we are working on fixing). After I get her back to sleep, she will sleep anywhere from two to three hours, rarely making it four hours. The hardest part is trying not to engage with her at night. We read somewhere to help them realize its night time, you keep it dark and don't engage with them. Keep it to the basics at night, diaper change, feedings, and rocking back to sleep. And right now, when I am trying to get her to sleep she will look at me with her big eyes and smile. It's so cute and even when I am exhausted I can't help but to smile back and tell her how cute she is.

A few days old and waking up from her nap.

Awe just love her!!!

Tummy time a few weeks old

My progress? Well I have a few more pounds to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight. I would like to loose more than that though and get back to my pre-wedding weight. That would be a nice accomplishment.

Going back to obligations I have is going to be hard for me. I keep thinking I don't know how to live my life that I had before the baby. One thought that scares me is going back to work. I got a little emotional the other day and told Shawn I will most likely miss all her firsts. First time rolling over, first crawling, etc. He told me, "we will just tell your mom not to encourage her to do those if you aren't there." That just made me giggle and of course he was joking....I think. We are working very hard to make it so I can stay home eventually. (Those new couches that we want at RC Willey will be a long time coming.)

Now I'm not one to sit in the bathroom and take pictures of myself, but I was feeling good this day and I wanted proof that I was looking good too even though I was sleep deprived and stressed.

Feeling like a hot mama!

Meeko is also doing great with her! Much better than I thought he would. I was almost certain that he would eat her or dig a hole in the backyard and run away forever. He still acts like the red headed step child though. He mopes around sometimes and gives me the saddest puppy dog eyes I have ever seen. He also has been getting into more trouble lately. BUT on the plus side, Noelle got a puppy the same weekend Leili was born and Meeko and her are already friends. He loves to play with Harlee and it take out a lot of his energy when she comes.

Off to a good start, first day home from the hospital.

Craving attention from his grandma

What we came home to one day.

 And Shawn, well he turned 26. I asked him, "what should I put about you for update in the first month of Leili's life?" He said, "I turned 26." That is all he gave me so I will add in that his five week "vacation" hasn't been a vacation. (He thought it would be and I knew it wouldn't.) He goes back to work on Halloween and I think he is excited but bummed at the same time. Leili and I will miss him during the day.

Well that is that, hopefully next post about her being two months old will have a positive report about her sleeping through the night (fingers crossed).

Until next time...

(This post is a few weeks late but was written on time.)